Spring update and my cat!

The other night I woke with a start after realizing I had not seen one of our 6 cats all afternoon and evening. I got dressed, grabbed a flashlight and went out to our backyard to search for him. Poor Johnson (yes, his name is Johnson) was huddled under a bamboo tree and totally uninterested in anything I offered him (food, love, shelter, water). I left him there and tried to go back to sleep.

But sleep would not come, I laid there and worried about him until I finally drifted off around 4:00. During that time I realized that I was creating a “nest worry conflict” (GNM term). And I really lived in a nest worry conflict over my boys, constantly. How could I heal if I stayed in that conflict?

I got in touch with Andi (my GNM consultant) to ask about Johnson’s healing from a conflict. During the conversation about him, she confirmed that my cats are my children and by worrying about them I stay in a “hanging healing”.

So, now, I must do all I can do to insure their health and safety so I can stop worrying about them. I have to let go as long as I have done all I can do. My brother taught me that last night when I asked, “How does a mother ever stop worrying about her children?”

Now, I expect to really speed up my healing as I let go of worry about my cats. Yippee!

Oh, and about Johnson? His conflict began last Monday when we had a gardener working in his yard. On Tues and Wed there were workman here disturbing his world. He’ s tough cat, but recently has become very frightened of strangers making strange sounds. I suspect Thursday he resolved his conflicts when all was quiet and right in his world and on Friday he went into healing.

I tell him he is safe and to sleep as his body is working perfectly and healing as fast as it can. His conflict lasted 3 days so his healing should take 3 days.

He is still comfortable in his “sick room” (our bedroom with the door closed), he will drink a bit of tuna water and today he wolfed down about 3 bites of food. I am so glad I didn’t take him to the vet! By tomorrow he should be getting back to normal.

Gotta love something so universal that it works on pets, too!  Viva GNM!

Great e-zine article on my journey

Hello,
I was so honored when Morgan asked if she could write an article about my breast cancer journey.  Take a look and enjoy the excellent writing.  Ha, and wait 'til you see the pic of me with long hair!  How did that happen?
 http://poetic-couture.com/portfolio-view/healingcancernaturally/

Sarasota begins a GNM Community!

I know you have heard a lot from me lately about German New Medicine.  Last month my teacher/consultant Andi Locke Mearsgave a free introduction class which was well received by the 30 that attended.  

But, that was just an intro.  Everyone left hungry for more information about GNM and for more details on how to use GNM in their every day lives.  And even though I have been using GNM for over 18 months to heal from breast cancer and other issues, I want to learn more, too. 

Andi has agreed to teach a 6 week course specifically for our Chapter! It will be a foundation course that will build upon the information we learned last month.  At the end of the 6 weeks you will have enough knowledge to look up in the book and/or chart and have a clear understanding of the conflict at hand.  Call it Applied Theory if you will.

Each class will be 1.5 hours including ample time for questions and answers.  Andi will be presenting via SKYPE so you will see her as if she is at the head of the class.

The cost?  Well, Andi and I are so excited about bringing GNM to more and more people that we have decided to start a "GNM Community" with this class as a template for future "GNM Communities" around the U.S.  Andi is offering an extremely reasonable price of $10/class per person or $50 for all 6 if you pay at or before the first class. 

If you did not attend Andi's class last month you will need to view the Five Biological Laws before the class begins.  Even if you DID attend you will want a refresher.  She is offering this once more  before our class begins on Wednesday, March 27th.  For more information or to register, click here: http://learninggnm.com/documents/1955_calendar.php.

 I have heard the Five Biological Law presentation numerous times and I still get a little "ah ha" each time I hear or read it.  Click to see and hear the Five Biological Laws of GNM  - a recorded session you can listen to anytime.

And if you missed a recent article on my journey you will want to check this out:
http://poetic-couture.com/portfolio-view/healingcancernaturally/#comment-6930 

UPDATE - April 5, 2013
Due to overwhelming response for webinars, Andi is reworking the course.  We will be starting a community as soon as I have the "juice" to facilitate them.  Can't wait.  But in the meantime, be sure to click on Andi's calendar for webinar info.  Better yet. write to her to get on her mailing list andi@learninggnm.com

Free GNM presentation Feb 12 7:00P.M.

Still fighting the battle, but winning the war!

Fatigue and pain have been my constant companions.  Even on the low dose of morphine I took daily, I was still in pain - maybe a 2 or 3 on the 1-10 scale.  BUT, I haven't let that stop me

In October Preston and I took a 4 day holiday to visit the Annapolis Boat Show.  I only had to nap one day - the first.  I was astounded at my stamina and it was great to feel "normal" for the first time in over a year.

I am sure many of you who don't see me on a regular basis are wondering how I am doing.  To see me you would never know I have cancer.  My eyes are bright and my complexion clear and at times rosy.  I smile and laugh easily.  I am very proud to say that I attended every single holiday party I was invited to, including the last one on New Years Day.  It was a bit grueling at times, but I had a ball with all my friends.  Again, feeling normal was important.

The worst part of the holidays was the food.  How can I resist the homemade cookies my sister sent? Even though they were for Preston, they were made from my grandmother's recipe.  I grew up eating these cookies.  How could "one for each hand" hurt?  Boy, were they good.

I did notice that where sugar used to cause me pain, it now causes me to itch like crazy.  Cancer loves sugar and I was feeding it too much as the year came to a close.  January One found me making another resolution around my diet.  Keeping it clean and healthy has made all the difference in the world.  No more itching!

Around the holidays, my new German New Medicine consultant, Andi Locke Mears suggested that it might be time for me to wean myself off the morphine.  I had been on 15mg of timed-release twice a day for almost a year.  It was a godsend in the beginning because it allowed me the sleep I had been missing for 6 months while I was healing, and healing is painful.  GET OFF THE MORPHINE !?!?!  How could she suggest that?  Well, I knew how because I also knew that the morphine was slowing down every bodily function - including healing.  I needed to quit limping along and dive back in.

Boxing Day.  I switched a Morphine for an Aleve.  Huh!  It worked.  And maybe better.  My Hospice nurse had ordered morphine drops for me to help me wean off the timed-release dose.  They were quick acting, but did not act very long.  And they totally slowed down ALL bodily functions if you get my drift.  I used them only in extreme circumstances.  And I kept substituting with the Aleve even though I was very concerned about my gut and liver.  I tried to take it with kefir or bone broth or at least with food.  Thank you, Sarah Pope for giving me licence to take the Aleve.

Then Andi suggested I go to a community acupuncture clinic for pain relief.  Never been to one.  Did not know what one was.  I had not used acupuncture for my cancer because I hated to be full of needles and then left alone in a room to "cook".  It triggered my panic disorder...I felt I could not "fight or flight".

Well, I want to tell you...Community Acupuncture is the way to go.  Imagine walking into a clinic and filling out a short one-page form, having the DOM (Doctor of Oriental Medicine) chat with you for 5 minutes about your condition and goals and then being taken into a room with 4 to 8 recliners where folks are napping away with needles in their legs, arms, head and ears?  Oh, it felt so safe. No panic attacks!

So, I went for acupuncture 9 times in 12 days and dramatically reduced my pain meds.  Now, after 15 treatments I am totally off all pain medications, including the Aleve.  It's been 8 days since I had anything!  And I am in less pain then I was on the morphine!  Actually, I have no pain except with certain movements.

I am now the poster child for acupuncture for pain relief.

Want to know more about Community Acupuncture?  I mostly see Heyley at Open Door Community Acupuncture, but when she is closed I go to Sarasota Community Acupuncture.

They have been a godsend.

I am catching up on months of silence so please enter your email address in the top right so you will automatically receive my posts.  I have several cooking away in my head as I type right now.  So many good things to write about.  Yikes! I have Cancer, but nobody told ME I couldn't beat it!

This sh*t makes me crazy

A well-meaning girlfriend sent a link to a bunch of "us girls" and it makes me so scared to think of how many women are going to be abused by mammograms.

Here is the link (only 2:58 minutes) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6e3udzHIiVs&feature=player_embedded

And here is my reply:
I totally agree with her mission to violate the law and to stand by her Hippocratic oath and NOT follow the Obamacare guidelines for mammograms as it is NOT the government's duty to dictate our health care.

However, I totally disagree with her on the need for mammograms and following the American Cancer Society guidelines.  I also disagree that screenings reduce the number of breast cancer deaths by 30-40%.  That's a pretty wide percentage.  Which is it, 30 or 40 percent?  But, her bad understanding of statistics aside, the actual number of breast cancer deaths has RISEN since we started having mammograms annually (http://www.naturalnews.com/010886_breast_cancer_mammograms.html )

For those of you who don't know this or who have chosen to ignore this fact, I had a CLEAN mammogram in October of '06 and the very next month I found a huge lump that, to this day I know was caused by the crushing blow of the mammogram.

They just want us to be scared so they can control our will and our pocketbooks.  Think of how many people would be out of work if a cure was ever found.  It will never happen so don't think an evasive procedure like ionizing radiation crushed through your mammary gland is going to keep you from dying of breast cancer.  You have a much better chance of survival without it.

Enzymes to the rescue

On Monday the 9th of July I received in the mail my order for some really good enzymes.  I had taken these back in January/February and had great results.  Ran out and tried a less expensive brand and did not enjoy the same benefits so I went back to the expensive ones.  By Tuesday I could tell there was a different quality to my pain.  It was more on the surface instead of deep in my soul.  Friday the 13th was a red-letter day for me.  I was very physically active, then ran the shop with Preston and came home and prepared dinner.  Usually after Milk-Fridays I am too tired and in pain to do much of anything and Preston has to take over.  This Friday I was so full of energy that after dinner I cooked a USWM ham and was slicing it at 9:30 to go in the fridge for quick lunches and meals.  Saturday I was still full of juice.  Sunday I worked in the yard from 6:30 11:00am.  Took a nap, ate lunch and went back out for a couple of hours.  Then I was really tired, but that was the most physical activity I have enjoyed in over a year.

The week continued with high energy and great stamina to the point that on Wednesday I decided that I actually could make it to Virginia and Preston's annual family gathering.  Preston and Zach drove on Friday and I flew on Saturday.  Had a great time, took short naps every day and flew back Monday.  The only activity I did not participate in over the weekend was croquette...I opted not to play in the mid-day hot sun.

Anyway, I thought you would enjoy knowing how my healing is going.  I am still following GNM and have used it for other imbalances in the last few months.  What a powerful gift it is.


And those enzymes.  I can't recommend them enough.  They are great for pain, inflammation and overall energy.  I am also taking the digestive ones and I love them.

My letter to a friend

Hello my friend,

SO sorry to hear about your bro.  That sucks! 

Yes, Bill Henderson's protocol was one of the first ones I investigated and bought into his supplements.  I hated the ingredients and could not confirm manufacturing processes so I did not have faith in them and decided to get my nutrients through foods and superfoods.  Also, I knew that a diet without animal protein was not right for me.  (As it turns out, my intuition served me well in that aspect as the protocol I am following strongly encourages a protein-rich diet).

Melanoma does not need to be anywhere near a death sentence.  I have three highly successful protocols I would recommend.  One, is black salve.  If he wants to use it I would buy it here.  I did not use it because my tumor was so large and deep and I was terrified of the pain.  However, I have areas that look like a rash that may be cancer so I am going to try it there.  If it is not cancer, the salve does nothing.  If it is, it will pull it out of that area.  Be sure to look for pictures.  And if he does want to try the black salve let me know and I can share more information I have gotten from folks who have used it successfully.

Speaking of pain...If your brother is in extreme pain, I would like to recommend your brother stop seeing medical docs except for getting a referral to hospice.  I did!  Best thing I ever did.  They are only interested in making you comfortable and not into the fright tactics the medicos (more on that next) use to get you to do horrible, toxic things.  If your brother is not sleeping well and for many, many hours because of pain, then that is a great route to take.  They are caring and kind.  We want to get your brother well, and in deep sleep is the only time a body heals.  I had terrible pain and for 6 months only slept 3-5 hours a night.  Once I got on morphine, I was able to sleep and my body went into healing overdrive.  The difference in just 2 weeks was astounding.

Now, about the fright tactics.  They are the WORSE thing for healing in the world.  Fear and panic can cause cancer elsewhere in the body (not metastasis which is an unproven theory  which I will talk about later).  He needs to stay calm, stress-free and confident that his body is healing.  Affirmations, meditations, EFT, Laughter Yoga are all great mind-set tools.  Also, funny movies.  And lots of rest.  A balanced and positive mind will keep him from going to dark places which are so counter productive.

I learned how influential the mind is in healing from cancer by using German New Medicine  I credit my understanding and the knowledge I have gleaned through my GNM consultant with my continued success.  Both of you should read the testimonials on melanoma.  I include you in this because sometimes you will need to "run tackle" for him and make sure he is never in a place where he is told negative things about his condition as that triggers a fear and panic response.  Preston took me to all my appointments - even with holistic healers - just to be sure that the severity or gravity of my condition was never spoken about by those who don't understand my viewpoint and that of GNM

The third tool I would investigate for him is http://phoenixtears.ca/  There are a lot of very positive testimonials with its' use on skin cancer.  There are even Pubmed articles!  For more info beyond that link, Google Rick Simpson.  This could be an alternate route to Hospice and painkillers!

I read your recent e-letter and was saddened to read that you stated your brother's melanoma can spread via the bloodstream.  Metastasis is a theory that is unproven and disputed and explained in this article http://learninggnm.com/documents/metastasis_theory.html  If cancer can travel through the blood system then why aren't blood donations screened for cancer?

I hope this information helps.  Stay positive, encourage a WAPF based diet and any other tools that will support the body's miraculous ability to heal!

An email to my family

I have some really good news I want to share with you all.  I have turned the corner and am enjoying life again.  I titled my last blog post, "Put your funeral clothes away!"  Let me give you a little history.

On December 15th I experienced the most agonizing night of my life.  The pain was all consuming and I could not get relief.  The next day (on the advice of my GERMAN NEW MEDICINE doctor) I called Hospice for pain management and wound care (Hospice doesn't mean "one foot in the grave").  They were here the next morning and I had pain meds in my bloodstream that afternoon.  What a big help.  Not great, but still a help.  It took about 2 weeks for them to realize that morphine was what I needed.  Now, I was feeling much better.

Again, on the advice of my GNM doc I went to a wound care clinic in mid January.  The doctor there asked what oncology I was using and when I told him that I wasn't using oncology he dismissed me by saying he could not do anything for me.  He then took Preston out in the hall the speak in private.  We know what THAT conversation was, don't we?!

While they were out of the room the nurse said that she could help me feel more comfortable and told me what I needed to do in terms of cleaning the wound and gave me a dressing to use. That was the catalyst for the turning point.  The dressing relieved 99% of my pain (which was now a 5 instead of a 10 thanks to the morphine).  It is called Mepilex Transfer and has been a godsend.

Now with the new dressing my pain was less then a 1 on a scale of 1 to 10 and I started sleeping 7-8 hours a night.  Prior to that I was happy if I got 4-5 hours of  sleep.  In deep sleep is the only time a body heals and with all that glorious sleep my body started making up for lost time.  My energy increased and then my appetite returned and then I got more energy.  Over the last 4 weeks I have started driving and doing light errands again.  I even went out on our boat last week!

I went back to the wound care clinic under the care of a different doctor who agreed to treat me palliatively which is all I wanted anyway.  It was my 3 week follow up.  The doc and nurse were SHOCKED by the progress the wound had made.  The doc said she would have been pleased if the wound had stopped growing, much less starting to close and look so healthy.  Since that visit I have started using a product from New Zealand called Medihoney.  Now the wound is practically closing before our very eyes.

I still have a long way to go.  I have to rest a lot, nap often and be careful not to over do it, but I am having a great time healing!  The cats even stopped sitting vigil and became playful.  They have been constant companions, bringing good energy to me while removing the bad.

I know I would not be anywhere near this healed if it had not been for the unending care and love I have gotten from my Preston.  In December he was with me almost 24/7. I was in such a bad way and he did everything for me. He had a difficult few months taking care of me and is so relieved and happy to see me functioning again.  I even get in the kitchen and cook once in a while which is one of my favorite things to do - nourish my family!  He is long over due for some nourishing and I look forward to being able to give back to him and all that have been so supportive!

Please feel free to share my blog...I think it is important that woman know they can survive breast cancer if they opt out of the cuts, chemicals and burns of the cancer industry.

Much love and good health to you all,
Cyn

Put your funeral clothes away!

Have I really not posted since Jul 11, 2011?  Many of you who don't know me personally must have thought I had succumbed to breast cancer and died.  Oh, no my dear reader, far from it.  I am doing great and looking forward to a full recovery.  Although, I must admit, there were fleeting moments filled with such pain that I wanted it to be over!  Let me explain.

As I delved deeper and deeper into German New Medicine (GNM) my healing speed progressed.  Now, note the name of this modality, it is NEW Medicine and to me that speaks of a NEW way of thinking.  For many, healing would mean closing of the wound, disappearance of the tumor and life goes back to normal.  But, the body doesn't work that way. Nor does GNM, especially when new fears are introduced. 

If you recall from my last post I had selected a RBTI consultant (I'll call her Mary) to work with to balance my minerals in the RBTI belief that no disease can exist in a properly mineral-balanced body.  I was encouraged with this consultant and I thought I was making progress until one morning on the phone she told me I should get a mastectomy.  Mary equated my breast to an apple...if you have a bad part, you cut it out.  Well, the bad part of my body was my breast and she wanted me to "cut it out" to save the rest of my body and my life.

Fear and panic coursed through my body.  Wasn't I using this consultant to avoid that mindset?  Well again, like I had done in the past, I ran from her, but not before that fear and panic effected my psyche then my brain and in a short time my organ (breast). 

And that is the track a significant trauma takes.  Read more about that on the GNM site www.learninggnm.com.  Forgive me if I oversimplify here as I explain how Mary's words - or more importantly, the way I reacted to them caused a Death Fright, or a Devaluation Conflict, or a Diagnosis Shock. To this day I am not sure which one, and possibly all three.  But, the result was an ulceration of the skin of my breast.  I had a new "wound" starting and that caused more shock and fear. 

My GNM consultant, Dr. Chris Lowthert worked with me keeping me calm and fear free.  See, I knew on the mental level that fear only makes things worse, even though I had total confidence in GNM I had to learn this in my heart and soul..I had to be prepared not to go into a panic when new or unexpected things occurred.  When Mary told me to have my breast removed (how barbaric!) I had only been introduced to GNM 2 weeks earlier.  I was green and impressionable.

Because I believed in GNM I read more and more.  I watched the breast cancer video over and over.  As I became more confident in my bodys' healing abilities, it seemed to become sicker and sicker as my breast wound was now consuming my whole breast and the draining was effusive.  Yuck!  I smelled of dead tissue.  And I hurt!  Lying down in bed had been difficult for 5 mouths or so and now it was impossible.  Now I am in pain and not sleeping.  How can a body heal if it is not getting the sleep it needs?  It can't and I didn't.

I was beginning to understand that the Healing Phase can be extremely difficult in the beginning.  There can be fever, inflammation, discharges and pain.  Wow, was I healing. I had all of those symptoms with excruciating pain.  And I had 5 months of this agony ahead of me. 

I'll post more of my journey soon.  If you wish to receive automatic emails when I post just enter your email address in the box on the top left of this page.  Thanks for your support in sharing this with others.

The 2 modalities I am using to cure my breast cancer

Hello!

I wanted to address some questions I have been getting about the modalities I am using to heal myself of breast cancer.  Even though I had them linked in my first blog, they took a back seat to the shock many of you experienced over my news.  I searched for more concise articles and I think the information below will be much more clear.

The two modalities I am using are German New Medicine (GNM) and Reams Biological Theory of Ionization (RBTI).

Here are two articles on GNM.  The first is short  - more of an overview of breast cancer. (Note:  I am left handed and the tumor began on the right breast about a year after my Mother died - this will make sense after you read the first article)  The second is very detailed but a totally interesting read.

http://www.newmedicine.ca/breast.php

http://germannewmedicine.ca/documents/explore_article.html

Now, for RBTI.  In a nutshell Dr. Carey Reams maintained that a body with the proper amount and balance of minerals will enjoy an environment totally free of imbalances/diseases.  Sounds simple, but it is actually very complicated.  Many, however have learned how to test themselves and are successful in the protocol.  I decided not to go that route and employed a RBTI practitioner who recommends diet and supplements based on urine samples I send to her lab.  I was quite relieved when her diet recommendations included my raw, grass fed milk, yogurt and butter.  As I said in my blog post, I am grateful for those foods as I am sure they have helped me stay strong these 5+ years.

My current energy is very low at this time.  I am going through the GNM healing phase and bed rest is required.  I take about 2-3 naps a day now, but in the beginning of the healing phase, I was bedridden for about 3 weeks so this is an improvement.  I am also experiencing a lot of breast pain at night (which is typical of a GNM healing) which interrupts my sleep a great deal.

But, there is good news.  We measured the tumor on 6/4 and again on 7/4.  During that time we moved house which was positively grueling.  Physically it took a toll on me, plus, for 10 days or so my diet was far off my normal, organic, grass based foods.  Even with those challenging 10 days, the tumor shrink 8%.  


I must be doing something right.

Yikes! I have cancer!

Hello all,

I have spent weeks composing this post in my head and it changes every hour. I decided I could not delay sharing this news with you anymore so I am just going to BLURT it out.

Yes, I have breast cancer. And have had it for over 5 years. FIVE YEARS you might be screaming. Yep, it is true. Before I dive into the history I want to let you know that I am going to be fine...perfect...stronger and healthier than ever in a short while. This 5 year odyssey will be over soon and now I am actually excited about telling you and the world! Breast cancer should not be a death sentence, nor a horror show of chemicals, cuts and burns.

About 6 months after becoming a WAPF Chapter Leader I had a mammogram (and then I read this article). It was clear on the right, a mass showed on the left. The doc did not instill enough fear in me about the mass so I forgot about it. However, 2 months later I found a quail egg-sized lump on the right side. How did it appear so quickly? Well, I blamed it on bruising from the mammogram (and still do), and, having faith in my new WAPF diet I decided to let my food be my medicine and did nothing.

The lump stayed the same for about 2 years. Then I did a homeopathic round of the weight loss hormone HCG that I strongly feel made it grow, grow and grow. Did the HCG have anything to do with it? Who knows, but the lump is hormone receptive positive so it would make sense. However, I am not a chemist so I really can't say. I can only repeat the timing and the history.

Now, I had to address the damn thing. I continued to eat tons of butter, fatty grass fed meats, eggs. drink our milk and take fermented cod liver oil. I feel certain it is my diet that has kept me so strong. I will not list the litany of alternative therapies I tried. Nothing really worked, and some things helped a little on some level I am sure. By last fall the lump had consumed my whole breast and started to break through the skin. Instead of being scared by the breakthrough, I was pleased it was draining and leaving my body.

That was when I allowed a biopsy to be performed that confirmed the hormone receptive positive cancer. Of course, the doc I saw wanted me to see an oncologist RIGHT AWAY and have a PET scan. I knew I wasn't going to get onto the Medical Merry-go-round so I dismissed her advice. However, with hindsight I can see that she caused fear and panic in me, which now I know is one of the reasons cancer is deadly.

About 2 months ago I was reading Matt Stone's blog and one of the comments mentioned RBTI. I looked it up and decided to investigate further and then signed up with a practitioner. I saw some amazing changes start to take place just by drinking the distilled water that was recommended. Then, I decided to look into German New Medicine and had a phone consultation with a GNM doc 2 weeks ago. After that consultation was when I got sick with my "cold". It is actually not a cold or flu or virus I am suffering, but textbook healing symptoms of GNM. I am thrilled to have a fever of 101 and the fatigue that is predicted. My body is forcing me to rest so it can recover.

And recovery is taking place! About a week ago the wound produced a beautiful, strong scab. Preston and I started measuring it on April 10 and today I was thrilled to see that the wound has shrunk over 30%! What I am doing is working and I feel I am on a perfect path to healing.

So, in summary, I am eating a balanced WAPF diet, using RBTI to monitor my minerals and GNM to heal my psyche, brain and breast. Oh, and I can no longer find the left side mass - just in the last 10 days or so!

I could write a book about my journey, but will refrain. I do want to ask you to share with any woman (or man) who suspects cancer to NOT PANIC and do some research BEFORE seeing a doctor. Remember, fear and panic cause more harm than you can imagine and that is what our medical system thrives on.

I hope I get to see you soon. I want to thank so many of you for your well wishes and offers of help. Preston and Zach will be holding down the fort until I am up and running again...which should not be too long now.

I am grateful to the WAPF Foundation and all our farmers for the knowledge and the healthful foods that has sustained me in the challenging time. Eat more butter my friends!

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With Love to you all,

Cynthia


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