Put your funeral clothes away!

Have I really not posted since Jul 11, 2011?  Many of you who don't know me personally must have thought I had succumbed to breast cancer and died.  Oh, no my dear reader, far from it.  I am doing great and looking forward to a full recovery.  Although, I must admit, there were fleeting moments filled with such pain that I wanted it to be over!  Let me explain.

As I delved deeper and deeper into German New Medicine (GNM) my healing speed progressed.  Now, note the name of this modality, it is NEW Medicine and to me that speaks of a NEW way of thinking.  For many, healing would mean closing of the wound, disappearance of the tumor and life goes back to normal.  But, the body doesn't work that way. Nor does GNM, especially when new fears are introduced. 

If you recall from my last post I had selected a RBTI consultant (I'll call her Mary) to work with to balance my minerals in the RBTI belief that no disease can exist in a properly mineral-balanced body.  I was encouraged with this consultant and I thought I was making progress until one morning on the phone she told me I should get a mastectomy.  Mary equated my breast to an apple...if you have a bad part, you cut it out.  Well, the bad part of my body was my breast and she wanted me to "cut it out" to save the rest of my body and my life.

Fear and panic coursed through my body.  Wasn't I using this consultant to avoid that mindset?  Well again, like I had done in the past, I ran from her, but not before that fear and panic effected my psyche then my brain and in a short time my organ (breast). 

And that is the track a significant trauma takes.  Read more about that on the GNM site www.learninggnm.com.  Forgive me if I oversimplify here as I explain how Mary's words - or more importantly, the way I reacted to them caused a Death Fright, or a Devaluation Conflict, or a Diagnosis Shock. To this day I am not sure which one, and possibly all three.  But, the result was an ulceration of the skin of my breast.  I had a new "wound" starting and that caused more shock and fear. 

My GNM consultant, Dr. Chris Lowthert worked with me keeping me calm and fear free.  See, I knew on the mental level that fear only makes things worse, even though I had total confidence in GNM I had to learn this in my heart and soul..I had to be prepared not to go into a panic when new or unexpected things occurred.  When Mary told me to have my breast removed (how barbaric!) I had only been introduced to GNM 2 weeks earlier.  I was green and impressionable.

Because I believed in GNM I read more and more.  I watched the breast cancer video over and over.  As I became more confident in my bodys' healing abilities, it seemed to become sicker and sicker as my breast wound was now consuming my whole breast and the draining was effusive.  Yuck!  I smelled of dead tissue.  And I hurt!  Lying down in bed had been difficult for 5 mouths or so and now it was impossible.  Now I am in pain and not sleeping.  How can a body heal if it is not getting the sleep it needs?  It can't and I didn't.

I was beginning to understand that the Healing Phase can be extremely difficult in the beginning.  There can be fever, inflammation, discharges and pain.  Wow, was I healing. I had all of those symptoms with excruciating pain.  And I had 5 months of this agony ahead of me. 

I'll post more of my journey soon.  If you wish to receive automatic emails when I post just enter your email address in the box on the top left of this page.  Thanks for your support in sharing this with others.